Run Away

There's always a time in your life when you feel as though you're at your lowest. How about those who live everyday at their lowest? I found it interesting to think of it in such a way. In life, there's always going to be someone who wants to put you down. There's always going to be a situation where you'll have to face discrimination and hate from other people. You'll be excluded and isolated from other people. You may even break bonds of friendships and create new ones.

Your life, is your decision.

Everyone's going to have problems in their lives. I guess it's easy to say that no one could understand how you feel. The truth is, everyone goes through similar things, but in the end, only you can feel what you feel. No one's able to feel for you.

Everyone deals with their problems in different ways. One person would seek advice from comforting friends.Another would bottle everything inside, thinking, no one cares. Now, ask yourself. Are you the first person? Or are you the second person?

Think about it.

Then you look back at the choices, and maybe you wonder... is there something in between? Is there some mutualistic extreme between the two? Perhaps there is, but the majority rules between the two.

I guess I titled my blog for today,"Run Away" because that is exactly how I feel. I'm the person who feels as though, it's hard to seek advice from friends, but do so foolishly. I'm also the person who would bottle everyting inside, still believing no one cares. And at the same time, I'm the person who's optimistic for others, and yet finds no hope for herself. Now why would I be this way? I'm not sure... I guess I'm still searching for that answer.

A friend once told me, "let go... Let go of your sorrow and just be happy. You don't have to pretend to be someone you're not. Just be you."

My response to this was, " I don't know who me is. I've lost myself somewhere over the years."
It's that exact same feeling of lost that has manifested within my mind and heart. I guess because I had that mindset for so long, that I couldn't see the world for what it really is.

There has been too many times when I had said to myself,"I'm going to make my life better. I need to make my life better, and that's that. "

I don't know what I want anymore, with my life or anything else for that matter. For now, all I am concerned of is living.. I want to keep living, and I still want to see tomorrow come..


I just want to keep k e e p i n g
and keep d r e a m i n g those . d r e a m s.

that's all I want...