...In the End....

It was more like something that was unheard of. And yet, a revelation to say the least. A dream that ought to be made come true. I wasn't sure why I had thought of it in the first place, but it was something that I deeply feel I must do.

Confused? Don't worry, it's really nothing, for now.

This past week, I've wandered aimlessly trying to make some sense of things. I was inflicted with emotions that I wished I did not have to feel. I was reminded of the sorrow and pain I've tried to run away from. And yet, through it all I found light. A sort of light that draws you from your nightmares and guides you to better lands. It was a light that I have not felt in years...maybe lifetimes. Unfamiliar as it was, I wanted to hang onto it. What is this light?

Perhaps, it is the hope i had lost so long ago. Perhaps, it is the faith I had thought I had given up. Or maybe it was something else entirely. I have yet to discover it's true nature.

I was plagued by a million thoughts that chooses to never cease to haunt me. It seems as though I have to fight for whatever it is I do nowadays. It's a fight against my parents, and a fight against myself. I have to fight for what I love and care for. It's an endless fight that just repeats over and over again. By the end, I wonder to myself, whether all of it was worth the fight..the effort...the pain... Everytime I doubt myself, I just make it an even greater reason for me to continue on with my life.

I don't know what had happened to us. The way things changed to easily. Priorities changed...people changed. It's happening so fast, and yet I could see it all in slow motion. Ironic isn't?

I wonder...what will be the result of it all...in the end